So i have a new housemate in my current house. Irish. Have a really strong accent that i tried to understand before, but now i gave up. This is not because i am try to be mean to her or anything...it is just tiring trying to understand every single word that she is trying to say. In addition...she is still that kind of kid...living in her teenage world...trying to talk about cool things...which i don't find cool. So what's the point. Save energy, for better purposes.
The 3 housemates of mine, they clique really well together. They can go on Tinder talking about hot guys for hours till like 2am in the morning and still continue to do so for the next few days. They smoke shisha together, they talk stuff that i don't understand ( sometimes)....and i felt like i am not their housemate at all. Well, i have to agree that i felt lonely sometimes, as whenever they saw or heard of exciting gossips or just felt like talking nonsense, they will just walk past my room without having the intention of sharing anything with me. Yeah, it was quite saddening sometimes, knowing that you couldn't really fit well into the environment.
I miss my college life, the togetherness with your housemates, the pillow talk, the dinner gatherings and the birthday celebrations. Those are awesome memories. I know it is hard to get back to those old days as we are all living in a different environments...and maybe we will have less common topics to talk about. Often, i ask myself, is it my problem or it is just because i couldn't find a nice friend that can actually talk with me in Cork.
Sometimes, i wanted to tell someone about this...but i realised that i have talked about it before and i guess no one could be bothered anyway. So that's why i keep a blog. I'm pretty sure this blog can withstand my thinking and emotions way better than anyone else haha. 3 more years with some nonsense people....and i shall leave ireland.
My birthday is this Friday. To be honest, i really couldn't be bothered having a celebration with those 3....as they just made me felt like they are not my proper friends. What i hope is, even though is just 1 friend, 1 sincere friend that actually accompany me during my birthday, have shopping spree and some decent dinner together. well...i know it won't happen....but hopefully i will get myself some gifts and cakes that i like! :)
I need to get myself a jacket/ overcoat, a pair of nice boots, an earphone ( my earphone is in a dismal state)..and a nice blackforest cake! I am craving for some blackforest cake now! Gotta search it out in town! That's all for now! ktxbai! :D
