下一步的路

过去的一年半吧，
我总习惯向他奔去。

不管是我伤心，开心，
想要放松，想要走街，
想要尝试新的餐厅，
想要逃离在科克的现实，
我都会订车票，
就去了。

有时候，
他说他想我了，
想要我过去，
我也就去了。

有时候，
会觉得，
我好像比较需要他，
多过他需要我。

累了想要休息，
因此决定不再像以前盲目的奔去。
不是想要玩拉锯战，
而是想要看看，
在我停留在原地时，
那个人愿不愿意回头，
带着思念向我奔来。

郁闷

有时候吧

我觉得我做人很失败
在我很郁闷
很想要找人陪的时候
想找人说说话的时候
还真找不到人

家人不回复短讯
男朋友太忙
不想要麻烦朋友

结果，得自己呆着。

人生来就是孤独的啊！

I wish to go home!

Hello! I'm back to Cork, Ireland to start another semester of my 3rd year dental life.

Life is pretty hard here, at least, for me. Thus, i do not really like coming back to ireland.

If you have been reading my previous posts, you will know that i face several difficulties here in Cork. No friends, no family, and a boring life haha. After 3 months of trying to get used to it, i hope i am 100% immune to it, but sometimes, when loneliness struck, my heart still aches.

I always ask myself, how long will i need to lead a life that i am not happy with? The answer is obvious, it is 2.5 years. I always hope that someone could walk through this hardship with me, but unfortunately, i think i might need to face it alone. Maybe, after this 2.5 years, I won't be the same me anymore.

How i wish, i could be at home. Family is always my main support :)