距离2012 年已经时日不多了,仅剩一天就要和这一年的我永远地道别。是的,一去不回头的再见。
因此,在告别之前,我想利用这个时间好好回溯今年的我。必须承认,今年,我有些幼稚;有些霸道;有些任性;有些自私;有些无理;有些顽皮;有些鲁莽;有些无知;有些敏感。
对于在今年我所无意在言语或肢体行动得罪的朋友们,请你们原谅我的过失。有时候,我会说气话而不好意思说对不起;有时我会我行我素地做事,没有顾及旁人的感受;有时我爱发脾气,搞得你们都不高兴!
在这里向大家慎重地道歉!往后,我会努力更改自己的缺点,让自己成为更好的人!
2012 宏愿?当然有!
= 永远保持乐观,并笑口常开!
= 努力生活,努力冲刺!
= 省钱!(最近什么都起价,就是工钱没涨)
= 让身旁的人天天开心!
= 成为一个更有用的人!
至于如何执行,当然是保密的咯!祝大家龙年快乐,健康快乐!
Friday, December 30, 2011
Monday, December 26, 2011
Time , flies
2011 is going to come to an end. Just 5 more days. How fast time has passed. I'm actually wondering what i have done in year 2011 as most of the time i'm feeling unrealistic. I thought i should be somewhere else but i end up walking in some streets in shah alam. HAHA...it's true that i missed high school too much. Reminiscing those days where i can still do everything i like, suddenly i felt hmm...not lazy nor repugnant, but i'm more willing to stay at home, actually. HEHE.
Jan 2011. Went to KDU. My brilliant and enjoyable college life has just started. Met lots of new friends, but most importantly, we are the same kind of human and have lots of things to talk about. A gang of 8, a class of 30, we created lots of jokes and fun when lecturers were not in class. Sometimes, we went out to have lunch with lecturers! Or they gave us a ride to shopping malls :P That's how close we student and lecturers could be. Like friends like teacher, FUN?? :) You can wear anything you like (chilled classrooms all the time), do anything you want and can leave class anytime you favour. Like heaven isn't? But as a good student, i always attend classes!
Nerd people? None at all. They are smart but not the type of holding books everytime everyday. They are fun to talk with, able to joke with and nice :) We'll take care of each other and live happily everyday!
Got SPM results? Yes! and here comes JPA. I'm really grateful that the government gave me this scholarship. But, the sad thing is, i have to leave KDU. Enrollment into INTEC was sudden and INTECians are all carrying a burden studying there. That's because we are all scholars. People are very hardworking here ( compare to KDU) and sometimes it's really pressurizing. If you are not determined enough, you'll indulge in books and never come out haha..Exams and tests are frequent, but we still need entertainment! For me, study is definitely important but there are many more things that are not taught in textbooks!
People say i behave differently when i'm in hostel and when i'm in school. Of course, in school i look more serious and more behaved. hahaha...In my own house (hostel)? That's my true colours! I will be super hyper sometimes, a bit boyish, love to disturb people ,LOVE TO EAT and more!!!! When i'm focused on something, i'll be oblivious to the surrounding and do not like to be disturbed. Maybe, i speak differently at those days too! Not so manja (hehe..), not so casual, not so relaxed. Therefore, some people might misunderstand me for being not friendly...maybe it's my fault? Different people have different characters, and it takes time to fully understand someone. Maybe i should change to be a better person next year! :)
Time flies after i came into INTEC. Because we are surrounded by books hahaha...tired of books sometimes..hahaha...so came the holiday! 1 and a half month! Seemed to be so long but now everything is going to end. Went to all shopping malls in PJ and walked through KL. Pavilion, Farenheit 88, I Utama, Ikano, The Curve, Mid Valley, Sunway Pyramid and more with friends. Wonderful?? HAHAHA...unforgettable also of those times where i stoned at home and watched tv the whole day! Well....classes are starting soon...enjoy the remaning holidays! :)
Jan 2011. Went to KDU. My brilliant and enjoyable college life has just started. Met lots of new friends, but most importantly, we are the same kind of human and have lots of things to talk about. A gang of 8, a class of 30, we created lots of jokes and fun when lecturers were not in class. Sometimes, we went out to have lunch with lecturers! Or they gave us a ride to shopping malls :P That's how close we student and lecturers could be. Like friends like teacher, FUN?? :) You can wear anything you like (chilled classrooms all the time), do anything you want and can leave class anytime you favour. Like heaven isn't? But as a good student, i always attend classes!
Nerd people? None at all. They are smart but not the type of holding books everytime everyday. They are fun to talk with, able to joke with and nice :) We'll take care of each other and live happily everyday!
Got SPM results? Yes! and here comes JPA. I'm really grateful that the government gave me this scholarship. But, the sad thing is, i have to leave KDU. Enrollment into INTEC was sudden and INTECians are all carrying a burden studying there. That's because we are all scholars. People are very hardworking here ( compare to KDU) and sometimes it's really pressurizing. If you are not determined enough, you'll indulge in books and never come out haha..Exams and tests are frequent, but we still need entertainment! For me, study is definitely important but there are many more things that are not taught in textbooks!
People say i behave differently when i'm in hostel and when i'm in school. Of course, in school i look more serious and more behaved. hahaha...In my own house (hostel)? That's my true colours! I will be super hyper sometimes, a bit boyish, love to disturb people ,LOVE TO EAT and more!!!! When i'm focused on something, i'll be oblivious to the surrounding and do not like to be disturbed. Maybe, i speak differently at those days too! Not so manja (hehe..), not so casual, not so relaxed. Therefore, some people might misunderstand me for being not friendly...maybe it's my fault? Different people have different characters, and it takes time to fully understand someone. Maybe i should change to be a better person next year! :)
Time flies after i came into INTEC. Because we are surrounded by books hahaha...tired of books sometimes..hahaha...so came the holiday! 1 and a half month! Seemed to be so long but now everything is going to end. Went to all shopping malls in PJ and walked through KL. Pavilion, Farenheit 88, I Utama, Ikano, The Curve, Mid Valley, Sunway Pyramid and more with friends. Wonderful?? HAHAHA...unforgettable also of those times where i stoned at home and watched tv the whole day! Well....classes are starting soon...enjoy the remaning holidays! :)
Thursday, December 8, 2011
给,你
你,是我生命中很重要的一个人,你知道吗?
你的性格,与我相似;
有点大剌剌,有点八婆,有点自恋,有点懵懂;
有些疯癫,有些笨拙,有些冲动,有些多愁善感;
一点的爱美,再加上一点的善良;
这就是你和我。
麦霸?不算。
我们只是爱唱歌。
我们爱将喜欢的歌大声唱出来;
爱用歌词影射当时的心情与情形;
爱用歌声宣泄一切。
爱幻想?的确。至少以前是。
总是希望戏里温柔帅气的男主角出现,
但随着年龄增长,
一切的幻想仿佛烟消云散,
但仍不忘的是真爱的美丽与幸福。
你是位纯朴可爱随和漂亮善解人意乐于助人的女孩,你总明白我在想什么,知道我要什么,清楚我爱做什么。 感谢上帝让我俩相识,更感谢你多年来的扶持和照顾,我一定一定会珍惜这份友谊!
今天是你的生日!想在这儿说声生日快乐!愿一切平安顺利,身体健康,友谊永存!
你的性格,与我相似;
有点大剌剌,有点八婆,有点自恋,有点懵懂;
有些疯癫,有些笨拙,有些冲动,有些多愁善感;
一点的爱美,再加上一点的善良;
这就是你和我。
麦霸?不算。
我们只是爱唱歌。
我们爱将喜欢的歌大声唱出来;
爱用歌词影射当时的心情与情形;
爱用歌声宣泄一切。
爱幻想?的确。至少以前是。
总是希望戏里温柔帅气的男主角出现,
但随着年龄增长,
一切的幻想仿佛烟消云散,
但仍不忘的是真爱的美丽与幸福。
你是位纯朴可爱随和漂亮善解人意乐于助人的女孩,你总明白我在想什么,知道我要什么,清楚我爱做什么。 感谢上帝让我俩相识,更感谢你多年来的扶持和照顾,我一定一定会珍惜这份友谊!
今天是你的生日!想在这儿说声生日快乐!愿一切平安顺利,身体健康,友谊永存!
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
幸福
睁开双眸,看着天花板。我会心一笑,感谢上苍让我多活一天。深呼吸,感受每一个心跳带给我无限的生命力,顿感精神抖擞。大家早上好!
我是这么的认为:看见阳光是种幸福,因为它递给你温暖,希望,亮光,白天。它的灼热与灿烂拥抱着世间人们的冷漠,无情,自私和刻薄,并用尽力量把每个人都晒得暖呼呼的。少了太阳的清晨,仿佛少了什么似的。或许,人们不会常注意它的存在,但没了它,一切都会变得不一样。
看见月亮是种幸福,因为它传递了爱,温柔,诗意与遐想。月圆之夜,是人们团聚的日子。就算两方距离很远,但他们看到的月亮是一样的,而他们看到彼此的心意也是一样的。
对我而言,幸福是对自我的肯定与爱护,是对上苍给你的一切感到满足,是鸟儿在天空翱翔的自由,是与亲朋好友的融洽相处,更是跌到后爬起来的勇敢与倔强。不要害怕影子,因为这代表近处有阳光;不要害怕黑夜,因为月亮与星星会在天上看着你。总之,遇到什么困难,都要相信一切总会过去! 永远拥抱幸福的生活吧!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
别哭了!笑!

开心!整个假期处于平静与兴奋的状态下!不用读书的日子,我会好好珍惜!没有考试的日子,爽!至少在这个月内,我想做什么就做什么, 没有任何压力与拘束!出去与朋友叙旧,喝茶聊天, 唱下KTV,走走,看连续剧,看电视节目,玩游戏!还真想一辈子过这样的生活哈哈哈哈!可是啊!最近总有一些朋友为情而困。。。不只是爱情,而且还有亲情!与父母吵架,说要断绝父女关系 ; 与男朋友分手, 整天哭哭啼啼,好像世界末日了;也有的自以为失恋,在那自我怜悯。。。亲情是一辈子的靠山,一辈子的港湾。就算天塌下来,第一个守护你的一定是你的家人,明明知道他们对你多重要,那又何必为了一点小事吵架呢?中二失恋?算了吧。。。那么小就为情烦恼,我还宁愿用那些多余的时间去找好吃的, 玩好玩的!这么幼小就怕自己嫁不出吗?哈哈哈!现在还是搞清楚自身责任再说吧!人生短短几十年,为了那些小事哭得天翻地覆,好像没了爱情就活不下去,有这个必要吗?
有些事情,少一点计较,少一点比较,少一点高傲,一切就能化小为无。或许,说得容易做得难,但人生的最终目的就是要活得开心啊!
Sunday, November 20, 2011
老爷车
" Why aren't you tidying up your room? Do you expect me to clean it up for you? " 在那美好的清晨,从睡梦中苏醒听闻的第一句话从老爷车的口中吐出。天啊!不屑的口气夹带严厉的语气,我有种预感,今天的日子会不好过。果真,整个早上,老爷车又再向我们淳淳教导做人的道理。。。
有时候,当老爷车发火,乐天派的我会将他所说的一切汇集在一起,然后一字一句的从左耳听进,在脑海里翻滚着几秒后又自然地从右耳飘出。最后,脑袋里浮现一个结论 :老爷车正面临中年危机!所以,绕了他吧!说到这,或许有人会认为我个性叛逆,将老爷车的耐心劝导当耳边风。事实上,我非常憎恨别人责骂我,尤其当其理由不足或不分青红皂白或无理取闹,因此为了避免火山爆发,我就干脆将对方“派入”正面临中年危机的一群,尽可能用我自认宽大的胸襟体谅他们的情绪起伏。奇怪吧?哈哈!
那,是老爷车教导我做人的其中一个道理。与其和别人(指的是小人)做正面冲突,轻则两败俱伤,重则自讨苦吃,倒不如适时在他面前做个缩头乌龟,让他耀武扬威,我一转过头天气依旧晴朗,花草依然芬芳,空气依旧清新!而你所说的每一句难听的话,在那瞬间就烟飞云散,消失不见!
再来," Don't expect, don't assume,don't take for granted. " 老爷车常说,不要对任何事情有过度的期许与盼望,而且不要以为。不要以为你付出的一百分会得到百分之百的回报,不要以为你对别人好别人就会有义务以相同的程度感激你,不要以为你是全世界最好或最烂的人,不要以为父母亲对你好你就可以利用他们的责任心,不要自以为是,不要自怜( 因为没有人会可怜你),更不要自以为没用。这花花世界,每天随着时针改变,风水轮流转,所以除了生死,没有一件事情是永远不变的。或许今天你是个乞丐,怎知道明天横财降临,一夜就成了亿万富翁?
当然,世事无绝对。没有人说你不以为就会怎样怎样,而每个人面对事情总有自己解决的一套方法,因此这一切因人而异!
我没听?老爷车,你说的每一句话我都有听进去,只是有时装出一副不理不睬的样。哈哈!总的来说,这日子嘛,开心也得过,不开心也得过,倒不如开开心心地过!为你还能健康地过每一天,干杯!:)
有时候,当老爷车发火,乐天派的我会将他所说的一切汇集在一起,然后一字一句的从左耳听进,在脑海里翻滚着几秒后又自然地从右耳飘出。最后,脑袋里浮现一个结论 :老爷车正面临中年危机!所以,绕了他吧!说到这,或许有人会认为我个性叛逆,将老爷车的耐心劝导当耳边风。事实上,我非常憎恨别人责骂我,尤其当其理由不足或不分青红皂白或无理取闹,因此为了避免火山爆发,我就干脆将对方“派入”正面临中年危机的一群,尽可能用我自认宽大的胸襟体谅他们的情绪起伏。奇怪吧?哈哈!
那,是老爷车教导我做人的其中一个道理。与其和别人(指的是小人)做正面冲突,轻则两败俱伤,重则自讨苦吃,倒不如适时在他面前做个缩头乌龟,让他耀武扬威,我一转过头天气依旧晴朗,花草依然芬芳,空气依旧清新!而你所说的每一句难听的话,在那瞬间就烟飞云散,消失不见!
再来," Don't expect, don't assume,don't take for granted. " 老爷车常说,不要对任何事情有过度的期许与盼望,而且不要以为。不要以为你付出的一百分会得到百分之百的回报,不要以为你对别人好别人就会有义务以相同的程度感激你,不要以为你是全世界最好或最烂的人,不要以为父母亲对你好你就可以利用他们的责任心,不要自以为是,不要自怜( 因为没有人会可怜你),更不要自以为没用。这花花世界,每天随着时针改变,风水轮流转,所以除了生死,没有一件事情是永远不变的。或许今天你是个乞丐,怎知道明天横财降临,一夜就成了亿万富翁?
当然,世事无绝对。没有人说你不以为就会怎样怎样,而每个人面对事情总有自己解决的一套方法,因此这一切因人而异!
我没听?老爷车,你说的每一句话我都有听进去,只是有时装出一副不理不睬的样。哈哈!总的来说,这日子嘛,开心也得过,不开心也得过,倒不如开开心心地过!为你还能健康地过每一天,干杯!:)
Friday, November 18, 2011
那些年,我们一起追的女孩

又回到最初的起点
记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终于来到了这一天
我们终于来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片
无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约
又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想象美
好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后
故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合
你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱着她
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你
拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你
告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你
紧紧抱着你~
那些年我们一起追得女孩,至今,不论是电影票房或小说的销量都是顶呱呱! 恭喜九把刀,也感谢您用您自身经历的故事感动大家。初次听闻,觉得或许又是那些典型且一成不变的爱情小说,才读一两面就大概能猜出故事的发展与结尾。但,在别人的怂恿下,我开始拿起了那本小说,慢慢地在宁静的早晨品味着九把刀的作品。
果真,那本小说吸引了我。不像哈利波特这么地变幻无穷,不像劲抽福禄寿那么地搞笑滑稽,那些年所呈现给我的是往年单纯,青涩,勇敢,相信爱情的真实画面。曾听过,有些人不知道哪里好,但就是谁都替代不了。那么,沈佳宜是不是九把刀不能忘怀的初恋呢?或许是吧!那些美好的记忆,总不是那么容易磨灭掉的。这本小说,让人想起以前高中时的点点滴滴,凭着一股勇气和一身的热血澎湃努力追求自己想要的幸福。在现今现实的社会中,恐怕没有男生会那么努力追求自己心仪的女生吧(陈妍希在电影创作书里发表的感叹)!所以,有些事情只能从小说和电影里找到,因为我们知道现实生活中无法寻找这些美好的事物。
九把刀,感激您唤起了我们中学时那纯纯的爱,纯纯的冲动,纯纯的刻骨铭心。加油!
Friday, October 14, 2011
祝福
Thursday, September 15, 2011
没有你们的中秋节
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
一个人生活
自然醒的早晨,天穹呈现一片暖和的蔚蓝。伫立窗前,女孩凝视, 睁大双眸凝视那被云朵簇拥的天际。。。茫然。
她只是一个女孩,渴求平凡简单的生活,但单纯的思想似乎与这混杂的世界,水火不容。叹气,沮丧,心情坠入深不见底的黑暗。
是我的错吗?懊恼许久,仍找不出一个头绪来。放弃思考,穿上粉红上衣与拖鞋,女孩出门了。手上还带着那个洋娃娃。凉风来了,女孩张开双手迎接风婆婆。和煦的阳光照亮大地,女孩昂首,微笑感激太阳公公的温暖。轻盈的步伐伴着舒爽的心情,她倏地感觉世界美好无比。
一片绿茵茵的草地,是女孩的目的地。洁净而辽阔,满地的蒲公英,是让她爱上这地方的原因。蒲公英随风在半空盘旋,她试图用双手将它紧握,但它早已远走高飞。。。
握不住的幸福,是女孩心中永远的遗憾。他毕竟都离开了,舍弃一切狠心地离开了,何苦为他泪流满面?
办不到的承诺成了心中的枷锁。女孩仍抱着希望,对那薄如蝉翼的未来。
曾经,他是她生活的中心。
曾经,他的欢笑是她努力的动力。
曾经,他是她奋斗的原因。
但如今,人面不知何处去,女孩的内心布满阴霾。
躺在草地上,原有的美好消声匿迹,徒留女孩的心,孤单在湖面成双。问自己,为何会走到今天这一步? 女孩摇摇头,耸耸肩,面露无助的表情。或许她也不知道,自己生存的意义。两个人的旅途,在半路被迫放弃前进,谁能不感茫然与失落呢?
女孩,继续向前走吧!不要回头,不要让痛苦的回忆笼罩你的世界。向逝去的那个他说声再见,把记忆结成冰,然后昂首迈向灿烂的未来!你要相信,一个人也能活得精彩!
她只是一个女孩,渴求平凡简单的生活,但单纯的思想似乎与这混杂的世界,水火不容。叹气,沮丧,心情坠入深不见底的黑暗。
是我的错吗?懊恼许久,仍找不出一个头绪来。放弃思考,穿上粉红上衣与拖鞋,女孩出门了。手上还带着那个洋娃娃。凉风来了,女孩张开双手迎接风婆婆。和煦的阳光照亮大地,女孩昂首,微笑感激太阳公公的温暖。轻盈的步伐伴着舒爽的心情,她倏地感觉世界美好无比。

一片绿茵茵的草地,是女孩的目的地。洁净而辽阔,满地的蒲公英,是让她爱上这地方的原因。蒲公英随风在半空盘旋,她试图用双手将它紧握,但它早已远走高飞。。。
握不住的幸福,是女孩心中永远的遗憾。他毕竟都离开了,舍弃一切狠心地离开了,何苦为他泪流满面?
办不到的承诺成了心中的枷锁。女孩仍抱着希望,对那薄如蝉翼的未来。
曾经,他是她生活的中心。
曾经,他的欢笑是她努力的动力。
曾经,他是她奋斗的原因。
但如今,人面不知何处去,女孩的内心布满阴霾。
躺在草地上,原有的美好消声匿迹,徒留女孩的心,孤单在湖面成双。问自己,为何会走到今天这一步? 女孩摇摇头,耸耸肩,面露无助的表情。或许她也不知道,自己生存的意义。两个人的旅途,在半路被迫放弃前进,谁能不感茫然与失落呢?
女孩,继续向前走吧!不要回头,不要让痛苦的回忆笼罩你的世界。向逝去的那个他说声再见,把记忆结成冰,然后昂首迈向灿烂的未来!你要相信,一个人也能活得精彩!
Thursday, July 28, 2011
转身之后
和你相约在这里 有些是想说明 我的决定 你却不愿意听 我知道你想要逃避 不想问不想听 这段感情 已经快要暂停 听我说从今以后 我会一个人生活 没有我的时候 你要一个人好好过
在我转身时候 你却又抱着我 在放手以后不再拥有彼此的温柔 在我转身之后 你的泪不停流 虽然心很痛却只能说 分开以后 我就要远走
I really really love this song. Simple but touching. After studying for 4 weeks in INTEC, i sort of get used to the environment and also the directions!!! Practicals have started, lecturers can just throw 5 physics reporst to you in a day....so i'll end up rushing the homework in the hostel. No tv? No fb?? Haha. I just wanna tell my brother that you can surely survive without using facebook for 2 weeks!!! So...don't keep on looking at the computer! Yesterday INTEC have International Food Festival where Russian, German, Japanese and Korean food were on sale! We have lecturers from these few countries, thus those food are really delicious!! Saw many korean students from korea, some are quite handsome hahahaha. Nice housemates living with me here in the hostel, they cheer me up when i'm down!! Cheers!! :)
在我转身时候 你却又抱着我 在放手以后不再拥有彼此的温柔 在我转身之后 你的泪不停流 虽然心很痛却只能说 分开以后 我就要远走
I really really love this song. Simple but touching. After studying for 4 weeks in INTEC, i sort of get used to the environment and also the directions!!! Practicals have started, lecturers can just throw 5 physics reporst to you in a day....so i'll end up rushing the homework in the hostel. No tv? No fb?? Haha. I just wanna tell my brother that you can surely survive without using facebook for 2 weeks!!! So...don't keep on looking at the computer! Yesterday INTEC have International Food Festival where Russian, German, Japanese and Korean food were on sale! We have lecturers from these few countries, thus those food are really delicious!! Saw many korean students from korea, some are quite handsome hahahaha. Nice housemates living with me here in the hostel, they cheer me up when i'm down!! Cheers!! :)
Monday, July 18, 2011
Updates :D
Time flies. It has been 2 weeks since i first stepped into INTEC wearing their student id. To be frank, the orientation was fun. We played games, group activities, talked about lame jokes, campus tour and many more. Orientation lasted for 1 week. That's long and tiring but fun. HAHA. Classes started last Wednesday. Life's starting to get busier and busier everyday, however it is indeed a different experience to stay together with other people and to live in the hostel. Of course, home is still the best but this is also and opportunity to learn and to be independent. Doing my ethics presentation at the moment, and i saw this sentence ' The purpose of life is to be happy.' So people, be HAPPY :)
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
English-written Post
GOSH. I think i need to write something in english before my friends gonna call me a chinalady( is there such a word?). But, i'm actually using bloggie to practice my chinese, since i'm not gonna use it to write any essays or assignments in college or universities. All english. ENGLISH! :)
Getting JPA scholarship is something out of expectation. I can say that, till now, this offer somehow seems too good to be true. People sponsoring your course fees and giving you pocket money to overseas? That sounds ridiculous. Parents have taught me since young that nothing is free in this world. That keeps me away from danger i think. Perhaps people will be envy of me being offered with it, but in fact i'm still thinking whether this course is the course that i really want to study. 5 years, after graduating i'm 25. That's long. This means, 7 years more of studying like a book worm and all the exams. I doubt that i can take it. Because, i'm quite exhausted after SPM. haha.
For my parents, of course they are happy. To them it is something like striking jackport. Many gifts and praises from relatives, but i'm doubting my capability to not dissapoint them. The only way in front of me? Work hard girl. If you're gonna drop our from university in Ireland or even in INTEC, i don't know what will happen. To them, i'm smart. But i know, i'm not at all. Maybe just a little bit more hardworking than others. That's all. Not some genius that can flirt in school, not study at home and score high marks in exam kinda people.
Now my life is very relaxed, but deep in my heart i'm worried too. After getting results, i'm worried whether i can get JPA scholarship. After that, i'm worried for the interview. Then, medical checkup. What if i'm not medicaly fit? haha. I seem to worry a lot. I should tell myself to relax...if not i'll have white hair :O
After all the worries? Life goes on. Move along!
Getting JPA scholarship is something out of expectation. I can say that, till now, this offer somehow seems too good to be true. People sponsoring your course fees and giving you pocket money to overseas? That sounds ridiculous. Parents have taught me since young that nothing is free in this world. That keeps me away from danger i think. Perhaps people will be envy of me being offered with it, but in fact i'm still thinking whether this course is the course that i really want to study. 5 years, after graduating i'm 25. That's long. This means, 7 years more of studying like a book worm and all the exams. I doubt that i can take it. Because, i'm quite exhausted after SPM. haha.
For my parents, of course they are happy. To them it is something like striking jackport. Many gifts and praises from relatives, but i'm doubting my capability to not dissapoint them. The only way in front of me? Work hard girl. If you're gonna drop our from university in Ireland or even in INTEC, i don't know what will happen. To them, i'm smart. But i know, i'm not at all. Maybe just a little bit more hardworking than others. That's all. Not some genius that can flirt in school, not study at home and score high marks in exam kinda people.
Now my life is very relaxed, but deep in my heart i'm worried too. After getting results, i'm worried whether i can get JPA scholarship. After that, i'm worried for the interview. Then, medical checkup. What if i'm not medicaly fit? haha. I seem to worry a lot. I should tell myself to relax...if not i'll have white hair :O
After all the worries? Life goes on. Move along!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
父亲节快乐

老爸!这听起来熟悉但难以形容的词,自我出生以后就从没离开过我。你的面孔,是我幼时最害怕见到的,因为我一做错事,就一定以藤鞭伺候。我清楚记得,你讨厌我挑食,讨厌我吃饭吃得慢吞吞,讨厌我打破碗碟,讨厌我不尊敬长辈,讨厌我不做功课,讨厌我没礼貌。那时我觉得,我所做的每一件事,你都看不顺眼。每一件事,你都要挑剔。每天生活得战战兢兢,妈妈与佣人是我的避风港。每当我吃不下饭时,你总会拿着藤鞭,在我背后倒数十秒,若我还没将一口饭吃下,身上又会多了一条疤痕。这时,妈妈将支开你,而佣人将会把吃不完的饭倒掉!
小时候,我不愿学华语,因为我太不喜欢华语了! 结果,每个星期六,你强势逼我到学校上华语班。为了避免我耍赖,你还特地请假在班上陪我上课一整天!我怕鬼,怕暗,怕蟑螂,你就逼我面对它们!对年纪还小的我来说,你很残忍!我觉得你太坏了,根本没把我当女儿来看待!那时我还真想,我是不是你生的?
然而,长大后才发现,为了这个家,您是付出了多少心血和努力。您努力挣钱,坚持每年要带我们到处走走,看看外面浩瀚的世界。您对我严厉,莫非希望我自律,自立,自强,且做个有用的人。您外表强悍,但内心温柔。您给了我们安全感,希望将一家人联系在一起,且有难同当,有福同享。
我觉得您是世上对我最好的男人!谁会一大早起来帮我准备早餐?谁会每天充当司机,随叫随到,还在放学前十五分钟在门口等待,因为不想我等太久?谁会知道我洗发精用完了还特地偷偷买新的一瓶放回原位?谁会每天晚上烧菜给家人吃? 谁会帮我做家务?谁会买给我我喜欢的包包?哈哈!以前,我把一切当成理所当然。但长大后,发现别人没有义务帮你,有时当你需要帮助时连个人影也没有。唯独爸爸, 是随时随地都会在我身边支持我的人。
曾听过这句话:“没一个女孩子将会是情人永远的爱人,但每一个女孩子将会是父亲永远的宝贝。”爸爸!父亲节快乐!爱你哦!
Friday, June 3, 2011
闲
Thursday, May 19, 2011
聚散
完蛋。这几个月将会是我最EMO的时期。我亲爱的朋友们,你们好样的,搞得我今天哭得稀里哗啦,哭了两个小时后连泪都干了,纸巾也没了。可是,今天是难忘的一天。。。
早上上课时,教师语重心长地祝福我们。虽然平时有点吵又爱闹,但您还是非常疼爱我们的=)接着,朋友们上台唱了‘一路顺风’和 ‘Right Here Waiting For You' 。 惨了,我的纸巾开始慢慢变少。你们要知道,我生病还没好啊!哈哈!过后,我们播放了自制的录影片,里头记载了我们一整个家族在这五个月来所一起经历的事情。有的朋友决定就读中六,我们支持他且帮他办聚会。我们上课的点点滴滴,一一都随着悠长的音乐呈现在眼前。 我们这一群即将离开的朋友,把想说的话都录下来在今天播放。接着,我们在台上唱了'Friends Are Friends Forever'。。。全场的朋友们个个哭成泪人。我们纷纷在台下相拥,希望将最真挚的祝福献给每一位朋友。那温馨的场面,我想,我一辈子都会记得。
说实在,我有点害怕。害怕夜晚,害怕一个人,害怕必须面临无助的感觉。未来会怎样我不知道,只想珍惜与朋友和家人相处的每一分,每一秒 =)
早上上课时,教师语重心长地祝福我们。虽然平时有点吵又爱闹,但您还是非常疼爱我们的=)接着,朋友们上台唱了‘一路顺风’和 ‘Right Here Waiting For You' 。 惨了,我的纸巾开始慢慢变少。你们要知道,我生病还没好啊!哈哈!过后,我们播放了自制的录影片,里头记载了我们一整个家族在这五个月来所一起经历的事情。有的朋友决定就读中六,我们支持他且帮他办聚会。我们上课的点点滴滴,一一都随着悠长的音乐呈现在眼前。 我们这一群即将离开的朋友,把想说的话都录下来在今天播放。接着,我们在台上唱了'Friends Are Friends Forever'。。。全场的朋友们个个哭成泪人。我们纷纷在台下相拥,希望将最真挚的祝福献给每一位朋友。那温馨的场面,我想,我一辈子都会记得。
说实在,我有点害怕。害怕夜晚,害怕一个人,害怕必须面临无助的感觉。未来会怎样我不知道,只想珍惜与朋友和家人相处的每一分,每一秒 =)
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
离开

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着,你的声音这么近我却抱不到。没有地球,太阳还是会绕,没有理由我也能自己走。你要离开,我知道很简单,你说依赖,是我们的阻碍,就算放开,但能不能别没收我的爱,当作我最后才明白。
这是一首我们都喜爱的歌。或许,我们认识的时间不长,相处时间也不算太多,但若相处时是真心诚意地对待,那么何必在乎时间的长短?听过梁静茹的分手快乐吗?歌词里是这么写的:若爱对了人,情人节每天都过!我们是一班朋友,但更像一群怀着梦想的孩子,相亲相爱的一家人。我们爱一起唱歌,爱搞笑,爱把整间学院搞得天翻地覆,爱大笑,爱用我们一起相处的时间堆积成建筑友谊的城墙。我们聚餐,我们拍照,我们互相扶持,我们互相挖苦,为的,是要将最真实的自我表现出来,通过这一些些小动作相互表达对彼此的关怀与爱护。
我知道,很多人要走了,要离开我们最初相识相知相惜的地方。的确,非常舍不得。中学毕业都不想哭,但为何这次每当想起将离开你们就不禁哭了呢?或许吧,我们都害怕,转身之后就无法回头看看那印在脑海中的笑脸。很多朋友庆幸地得到了奖学金,即将各奔前程。一大半的家族走了,只剩其余的独守空荡荡的课室。但,我们的心仍会连接在一起,待大家都回来后再重组美满的家园。但是,那得需要差不多十年,或更多的光景?
很舍不得你们。。。但能怎么办呢? 离开那天,别让我哭!因为我想再看看你们的笑脸,记得你们的声音,然后将之印在脑海中,成为生命里最不可磨灭的记忆。
Friday, May 6, 2011
散场
哈哈!我又回来了!这几个月来,经历了不少事情。哭过,也笑过。感谢在我脆弱时陪伴在我身边的朋友。你们给予我勇气,鼓励,让我相信明天会更好。尤其是你,感谢你的帮助,你的臂膀,你的陪伴,你的可爱,你的温柔。翰,我由衷地感谢 =)
另一个你,我小看你。
我,势必要还我这张脸一堆笑容。在你面前哭过一次,是第一次,也是最后一次。你说过的话,早已收不回。所有的道歉已无法抚平心里的浪潮。下次,不会再为了你的话而哭,因为你不值得我流泪。你算什么东西?就凭你一句话想抹灭我的努力? 你还没那个资格。算了。反正我即将离开,愿你的面孔永远消失于晴朗。我不称您作您,你就知道我又多么放不下。
另一个你,我小看你。
我,势必要还我这张脸一堆笑容。在你面前哭过一次,是第一次,也是最后一次。你说过的话,早已收不回。所有的道歉已无法抚平心里的浪潮。下次,不会再为了你的话而哭,因为你不值得我流泪。你算什么东西?就凭你一句话想抹灭我的努力? 你还没那个资格。算了。反正我即将离开,愿你的面孔永远消失于晴朗。我不称您作您,你就知道我又多么放不下。
Thursday, April 28, 2011
省思

刚从BUKIT TINGGI 度假回来,特感精神!这一班朋友,虽然只认识四个月,感情却深厚。这让我不禁感慨:有些人,你认识了十年,但一年都没说过一句话; 有些朋友,认识不久,却处处关心你,在你需要的时候雪中送炭。或许有人会说那些不是他们的真面目!日久见人心,迟点就会性情大变,判若两人! 是的,世界在变,每个人都在变。谁能保证过了十几二十年,一切与昔日相同?有听过不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有吗?或许,我们能做的只是好好珍惜现在。时光飞逝,有谁知道下一秒将发生什么事情?想做的,有能力做的, 为何不赶紧做呢?想说的,表达的,为何开不了口?
甭管那人是虚情假意,恶贯满盈,那一刻,他们在我的身边,陪我写下人生美丽的故事,留给我美好的回忆,那就已经足够。过去的那一刻,永远不会回来。那段回忆,谁也无法将它从我脑海中删除, 也是谁都替代不了。这一班朋友,是过客还是生死之交,有谁会知道?想得太多,有时会让人难以前进。人生吗!看开一点,会让自己身心变得舒服与放松。自己何苦为难自己?一切顺其自然!当然,我还是十分珍惜这一切!
过去,让它过去;现在,好好珍惜;未来,拭目以待 =)
Sunday, April 24, 2011
近况
好久没来到这里了。某天突然想起这个被我忽视的角落,现在在这里述说一切,还有点不大适应。都快要十八岁了,可是我还没感觉到身为十八岁少女应有的亭亭玉立与青春活泼。。。。。。说实话,有点累。从星期一至五,每天都须七时起床,去上课,最早回到家的时间也是四时半。我感觉,College 比中学还惨。回到家,眼睛都快要闭上了,却还得读书。咳!
JPA? 我个人没什么感觉,能做的我尽量做了,剩下的听天由命吧!各位亲戚大人,您们就放过我吧。。。看到我一次就问一次,冷静点!
现在正在放假,好不容易能休息,得好好珍惜!! 各位朋友,加油咯!! =)
JPA? 我个人没什么感觉,能做的我尽量做了,剩下的听天由命吧!各位亲戚大人,您们就放过我吧。。。看到我一次就问一次,冷静点!
现在正在放假,好不容易能休息,得好好珍惜!! 各位朋友,加油咯!! =)
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
新年
大家新年快乐!!!!!! 首先,恭喜李佳薇在星光七的总决赛夺冠!! 从开始到最后,我可是一集都没漏掉哦!! 只能说,唱歌需要天份,但也需要努力. 而你努力的成果,就是在舞台上闪闪发光! 再次恭喜你! 可惜,李宗伟有输给林丹了. 可是,至少那场球赛非常精彩. 大家也都知道您尽力了.谁叫林丹总是那么厉害?? 再努力咯!! 马来西亚加油!! =)
上了COLLEGE 后, 比中学还要忙. 不管你会不会,明不明白,老师照样跟着自己的进度继续. 稍微不留神,一切都会变得模糊. 天啊!! 哈哈. 我又到这儿埋怨了. 每天的生活基本上就是上课,做功课,跳舞....还好每星期有两天的休假.
今年的新年,期待有更多的红包! 恭喜发财!
上了COLLEGE 后, 比中学还要忙. 不管你会不会,明不明白,老师照样跟着自己的进度继续. 稍微不留神,一切都会变得模糊. 天啊!! 哈哈. 我又到这儿埋怨了. 每天的生活基本上就是上课,做功课,跳舞....还好每星期有两天的休假.
今年的新年,期待有更多的红包! 恭喜发财!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Special date,special day
Today is 11th of Jan in the year 2011!!!! 11/1/11 ahahahah...brilliant. No really cool celebrations but KDU's orientation today has added colours to my day =) Met lots of new friends and old friends!! Some are from my primary school and even tuition centre!! The world is indeed small. Played games,had a short intro about clubs and societies...now i feel so tired. Haha...suddenly love to be in college. Feel more relaxed but of course, A-levels is quite hard and i should work hard. So new year,new motivation and new aim!!!! Ganbatte!!! =)
Saturday, January 1, 2011
放下过去,放眼未来
2011 年!!! 听起来是个全新的一年,但想一想,也不是要过回千篇一律的生活?? 上课,放学,看电视,做功课,玩电脑.....再想一想,我这个年纪的朋友,除了做这些还能做什么??? 2010年,我不知道该用什么样的字眼来形容这一年. 以前,我会执着,会固执,会不顾一切. 经历了许多事情,虽说不是大风大浪,更不是什么沧海桑田,但我明白了一些以前领悟不到的东西,那就是放下. 会坚持,但不会笨到死赖着不放. 会追忆,但不至于苦苦思念. 会心痛,但绝不让眼泪留下. 哈哈...怎么又开始感伤了呢??? 咳...谁叫朋友现在都各奔东西? 啊! 不说了! 假期也就快要过去了...我说这次的假期也太奇怪了吧! 得空时就真的非常得空,连自己要做什么都不知道. 忙的时候却忙得不得了,一天只能睡5 个小时.....害我累得连看电视都懒...
不管了!! 所有不在我控制范围的事物,不理不管不想!!! 我才没那个闲空....哈哈!! 2011年! 希望将多一点的笑容,多一点的幸福传送给世界上每一个人! 加油!!
不管了!! 所有不在我控制范围的事物,不理不管不想!!! 我才没那个闲空....哈哈!! 2011年! 希望将多一点的笑容,多一点的幸福传送给世界上每一个人! 加油!!
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