GOSH. I think i need to write something in english before my friends gonna call me a chinalady( is there such a word?). But, i'm actually using bloggie to practice my chinese, since i'm not gonna use it to write any essays or assignments in college or universities. All english. ENGLISH! :)
Getting JPA scholarship is something out of expectation. I can say that, till now, this offer somehow seems too good to be true. People sponsoring your course fees and giving you pocket money to overseas? That sounds ridiculous. Parents have taught me since young that nothing is free in this world. That keeps me away from danger i think. Perhaps people will be envy of me being offered with it, but in fact i'm still thinking whether this course is the course that i really want to study. 5 years, after graduating i'm 25. That's long. This means, 7 years more of studying like a book worm and all the exams. I doubt that i can take it. Because, i'm quite exhausted after SPM. haha.
For my parents, of course they are happy. To them it is something like striking jackport. Many gifts and praises from relatives, but i'm doubting my capability to not dissapoint them. The only way in front of me? Work hard girl. If you're gonna drop our from university in Ireland or even in INTEC, i don't know what will happen. To them, i'm smart. But i know, i'm not at all. Maybe just a little bit more hardworking than others. That's all. Not some genius that can flirt in school, not study at home and score high marks in exam kinda people.
Now my life is very relaxed, but deep in my heart i'm worried too. After getting results, i'm worried whether i can get JPA scholarship. After that, i'm worried for the interview. Then, medical checkup. What if i'm not medicaly fit? haha. I seem to worry a lot. I should tell myself to relax...if not i'll have white hair :O
After all the worries? Life goes on. Move along!
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