We make them cry who care for us.

We cry for those who never care for us.

And we care for those who will never cry for us.


如果他总为别人撑伞你何苦非为他等在雨中？

English-written Post

GOSH. I think i need to write something in english before my friends gonna call me a chinalady( is there such a word?). But, i'm actually using bloggie to practice my chinese, since i'm not gonna use it to write any essays or assignments in college or universities. All english. ENGLISH! :)

Getting JPA scholarship is something out of expectation. I can say that, till now, this offer somehow seems too good to be true. People sponsoring your course fees and giving you pocket money to overseas? That sounds ridiculous. Parents have taught me since young that nothing is free in this world. That keeps me away from danger i think. Perhaps people will be envy of me being offered with it, but in fact i'm still thinking whether this course is the course that i really want to study. 5 years, after graduating i'm 25. That's long. This means, 7 years more of studying like a book worm and all the exams. I doubt that i can take it. Because, i'm quite exhausted after SPM. haha.

For my parents, of course they are happy. To them it is something like striking jackport. Many gifts and praises from relatives, but i'm doubting my capability to not dissapoint them. The only way in front of me? Work hard girl. If you're gonna drop our from university in Ireland or even in INTEC, i don't know what will happen. To them, i'm smart. But i know, i'm not at all. Maybe just a little bit more hardworking than others. That's all. Not some genius that can flirt in school, not study at home and score high marks in exam kinda people.

Now my life is very relaxed, but deep in my heart i'm worried too. After getting results, i'm worried whether i can get JPA scholarship. After that, i'm worried for the interview. Then, medical checkup. What if i'm not medicaly fit? haha. I seem to worry a lot. I should tell myself to relax...if not i'll have white hair :O

After all the worries? Life goes on. Move along!

父亲节快乐

老爸！这听起来熟悉但难以形容的词，自我出生以后就从没离开过我。你的面孔，是我幼时最害怕见到的，因为我一做错事，就一定以藤鞭伺候。我清楚记得，你讨厌我挑食，讨厌我吃饭吃得慢吞吞，讨厌我打破碗碟，讨厌我不尊敬长辈，讨厌我不做功课，讨厌我没礼貌。那时我觉得，我所做的每一件事，你都看不顺眼。每一件事，你都要挑剔。每天生活得战战兢兢，妈妈与佣人是我的避风港。每当我吃不下饭时，你总会拿着藤鞭，在我背后倒数十秒，若我还没将一口饭吃下，身上又会多了一条疤痕。这时，妈妈将支开你，而佣人将会把吃不完的饭倒掉！

小时候，我不愿学华语，因为我太不喜欢华语了! 结果，每个星期六，你强势逼我到学校上华语班。为了避免我耍赖，你还特地请假在班上陪我上课一整天！我怕鬼，怕暗，怕蟑螂，你就逼我面对它们！对年纪还小的我来说，你很残忍！我觉得你太坏了，根本没把我当女儿来看待！那时我还真想，我是不是你生的？

然而，长大后才发现，为了这个家，您是付出了多少心血和努力。您努力挣钱，坚持每年要带我们到处走走，看看外面浩瀚的世界。您对我严厉，莫非希望我自律，自立，自强，且做个有用的人。您外表强悍，但内心温柔。您给了我们安全感，希望将一家人联系在一起，且有难同当，有福同享。

我觉得您是世上对我最好的男人！谁会一大早起来帮我准备早餐？谁会每天充当司机，随叫随到，还在放学前十五分钟在门口等待，因为不想我等太久？谁会知道我洗发精用完了还特地偷偷买新的一瓶放回原位？谁会每天晚上烧菜给家人吃? 谁会帮我做家务？谁会买给我我喜欢的包包？哈哈！以前，我把一切当成理所当然。但长大后，发现别人没有义务帮你，有时当你需要帮助时连个人影也没有。唯独爸爸， 是随时随地都会在我身边支持我的人。

曾听过这句话：“没一个女孩子将会是情人永远的爱人，但每一个女孩子将会是父亲永远的宝贝。”爸爸！父亲节快乐！爱你哦！

闲

放假咯！这是我期待已久的事。。。毕竟还没真正休息一番。但，正当我要开始玩乐，病魔却找上门。天啊！两个星期内生病两次，这日子，真难熬。你啊你，搞得我最近都失眠，总要在床上滚个三小时才肯让我安心睡去。隔天起来又处于半懵半醒的状态，这种情况还要维持多少天呢？没法啦，只能好好照顾自己 =）

再过一个月便要开始马不停蹄的生活，所以现在非常珍惜这一段较为悠闲的时光。每天的清晨，你们好！温暖的阳光和清新的空气，开始我充满希望的每一天！