一个人生活

自然醒的早晨，天穹呈现一片暖和的蔚蓝。伫立窗前，女孩凝视， 睁大双眸凝视那被云朵簇拥的天际。。。茫然。
她只是一个女孩，渴求平凡简单的生活，但单纯的思想似乎与这混杂的世界，水火不容。叹气，沮丧，心情坠入深不见底的黑暗。

是我的错吗？懊恼许久，仍找不出一个头绪来。放弃思考，穿上粉红上衣与拖鞋，女孩出门了。手上还带着那个洋娃娃。凉风来了，女孩张开双手迎接风婆婆。和煦的阳光照亮大地，女孩昂首，微笑感激太阳公公的温暖。轻盈的步伐伴着舒爽的心情，她倏地感觉世界美好无比。

一片绿茵茵的草地，是女孩的目的地。洁净而辽阔，满地的蒲公英，是让她爱上这地方的原因。蒲公英随风在半空盘旋，她试图用双手将它紧握，但它早已远走高飞。。。

握不住的幸福，是女孩心中永远的遗憾。他毕竟都离开了，舍弃一切狠心地离开了，何苦为他泪流满面？

办不到的承诺成了心中的枷锁。女孩仍抱着希望，对那薄如蝉翼的未来。
曾经，他是她生活的中心。
曾经，他的欢笑是她努力的动力。
曾经，他是她奋斗的原因。
但如今，人面不知何处去，女孩的内心布满阴霾。

躺在草地上，原有的美好消声匿迹，徒留女孩的心，孤单在湖面成双。问自己，为何会走到今天这一步？ 女孩摇摇头，耸耸肩，面露无助的表情。或许她也不知道，自己生存的意义。两个人的旅途，在半路被迫放弃前进，谁能不感茫然与失落呢？

女孩，继续向前走吧！不要回头，不要让痛苦的回忆笼罩你的世界。向逝去的那个他说声再见，把记忆结成冰，然后昂首迈向灿烂的未来！你要相信，一个人也能活得精彩！

转身之后

和你相约在这里 有些是想说明 我的决定 你却不愿意听 我知道你想要逃避 不想问不想听 这段感情 已经快要暂停 听我说从今以后 我会一个人生活 没有我的时候 你要一个人好好过

在我转身时候 你却又抱着我 在放手以后不再拥有彼此的温柔 在我转身之后 你的泪不停流 虽然心很痛却只能说 分开以后 我就要远走


I really really love this song. Simple but touching. After studying for 4 weeks in INTEC, i sort of get used to the environment and also the directions!!! Practicals have started, lecturers can just throw 5 physics reporst to you in a day....so i'll end up rushing the homework in the hostel. No tv? No fb?? Haha. I just wanna tell my brother that you can surely survive without using facebook for 2 weeks!!! So...don't keep on looking at the computer! Yesterday INTEC have International Food Festival where Russian, German, Japanese and Korean food were on sale! We have lecturers from these few countries, thus those food are really delicious!! Saw many korean students from korea, some are quite handsome hahahaha. Nice housemates living with me here in the hostel, they cheer me up when i'm down!! Cheers!! :)

Updates :D

Time flies. It has been 2 weeks since i first stepped into INTEC wearing their student id. To be frank, the orientation was fun. We played games, group activities, talked about lame jokes, campus tour and many more. Orientation lasted for 1 week. That's long and tiring but fun. HAHA. Classes started last Wednesday. Life's starting to get busier and busier everyday, however it is indeed a different experience to stay together with other people and to live in the hostel. Of course, home is still the best but this is also and opportunity to learn and to be independent. Doing my ethics presentation at the moment, and i saw this sentence ' The purpose of life is to be happy.' So people, be HAPPY :)

We make them cry who care for us.

We cry for those who never care for us.

And we care for those who will never cry for us.


如果他总为别人撑伞你何苦非为他等在雨中？

English-written Post

GOSH. I think i need to write something in english before my friends gonna call me a chinalady( is there such a word?). But, i'm actually using bloggie to practice my chinese, since i'm not gonna use it to write any essays or assignments in college or universities. All english. ENGLISH! :)

Getting JPA scholarship is something out of expectation. I can say that, till now, this offer somehow seems too good to be true. People sponsoring your course fees and giving you pocket money to overseas? That sounds ridiculous. Parents have taught me since young that nothing is free in this world. That keeps me away from danger i think. Perhaps people will be envy of me being offered with it, but in fact i'm still thinking whether this course is the course that i really want to study. 5 years, after graduating i'm 25. That's long. This means, 7 years more of studying like a book worm and all the exams. I doubt that i can take it. Because, i'm quite exhausted after SPM. haha.

For my parents, of course they are happy. To them it is something like striking jackport. Many gifts and praises from relatives, but i'm doubting my capability to not dissapoint them. The only way in front of me? Work hard girl. If you're gonna drop our from university in Ireland or even in INTEC, i don't know what will happen. To them, i'm smart. But i know, i'm not at all. Maybe just a little bit more hardworking than others. That's all. Not some genius that can flirt in school, not study at home and score high marks in exam kinda people.

Now my life is very relaxed, but deep in my heart i'm worried too. After getting results, i'm worried whether i can get JPA scholarship. After that, i'm worried for the interview. Then, medical checkup. What if i'm not medicaly fit? haha. I seem to worry a lot. I should tell myself to relax...if not i'll have white hair :O

After all the worries? Life goes on. Move along!

父亲节快乐

老爸！这听起来熟悉但难以形容的词，自我出生以后就从没离开过我。你的面孔，是我幼时最害怕见到的，因为我一做错事，就一定以藤鞭伺候。我清楚记得，你讨厌我挑食，讨厌我吃饭吃得慢吞吞，讨厌我打破碗碟，讨厌我不尊敬长辈，讨厌我不做功课，讨厌我没礼貌。那时我觉得，我所做的每一件事，你都看不顺眼。每一件事，你都要挑剔。每天生活得战战兢兢，妈妈与佣人是我的避风港。每当我吃不下饭时，你总会拿着藤鞭，在我背后倒数十秒，若我还没将一口饭吃下，身上又会多了一条疤痕。这时，妈妈将支开你，而佣人将会把吃不完的饭倒掉！

小时候，我不愿学华语，因为我太不喜欢华语了! 结果，每个星期六，你强势逼我到学校上华语班。为了避免我耍赖，你还特地请假在班上陪我上课一整天！我怕鬼，怕暗，怕蟑螂，你就逼我面对它们！对年纪还小的我来说，你很残忍！我觉得你太坏了，根本没把我当女儿来看待！那时我还真想，我是不是你生的？

然而，长大后才发现，为了这个家，您是付出了多少心血和努力。您努力挣钱，坚持每年要带我们到处走走，看看外面浩瀚的世界。您对我严厉，莫非希望我自律，自立，自强，且做个有用的人。您外表强悍，但内心温柔。您给了我们安全感，希望将一家人联系在一起，且有难同当，有福同享。

我觉得您是世上对我最好的男人！谁会一大早起来帮我准备早餐？谁会每天充当司机，随叫随到，还在放学前十五分钟在门口等待，因为不想我等太久？谁会知道我洗发精用完了还特地偷偷买新的一瓶放回原位？谁会每天晚上烧菜给家人吃? 谁会帮我做家务？谁会买给我我喜欢的包包？哈哈！以前，我把一切当成理所当然。但长大后，发现别人没有义务帮你，有时当你需要帮助时连个人影也没有。唯独爸爸， 是随时随地都会在我身边支持我的人。

曾听过这句话：“没一个女孩子将会是情人永远的爱人，但每一个女孩子将会是父亲永远的宝贝。”爸爸！父亲节快乐！爱你哦！

闲

放假咯！这是我期待已久的事。。。毕竟还没真正休息一番。但，正当我要开始玩乐，病魔却找上门。天啊！两个星期内生病两次，这日子，真难熬。你啊你，搞得我最近都失眠，总要在床上滚个三小时才肯让我安心睡去。隔天起来又处于半懵半醒的状态，这种情况还要维持多少天呢？没法啦，只能好好照顾自己 =）

再过一个月便要开始马不停蹄的生活，所以现在非常珍惜这一段较为悠闲的时光。每天的清晨，你们好！温暖的阳光和清新的空气，开始我充满希望的每一天！