Stupid Day!!

Yes today is a stupid day. 23rd of October 2013. First i overslept. I'm supposed to wake up at 7am and cook my lunch so that i can stay in the library and reduce the amount of walking for the day. At 9am i am supposed to meet the physiotherapist. I PAID FOR IT AND I MISSED IT. The lady at the reception was telling me that i have to pay extra to make another appointment because i did not turn up today. I was like wth??? I got so mad at her...ya i understand it is my fault but could't you just give me another appointment? I charged me 25 euro for nothing. At that moment i seriously feel disgusted looking at her face. ISHHH.

Another thing. I was asking this Ukraine guy in my class something about the lecture because i don't really get what the lecturer was talking about. Yes the lecturer is always slurring. =.= I don't like to attend his class. HAIZ. And yet at this moment this beautiful lady wearing branded clothes just  poked this guy and asked him questions. And this ukraine guy even turned over and taught her for a long time about this and that and that. He totally ignored me. First of all, the guy has a problem. He doesn't know number 1 comes before number 2. Perhaps he was more attracted to pretty ladies (it is a fact and i don't like it). BUT THE GIRL IS THE REAL PROBLEM. This is the second time of her doing this. Interrupting people's conversation and did not even say a word to me. She just expect everyone to follow her pace and she should get what she wants when she need it. YA I ADMIT YOU ARE PRETTIER AND RICHER AND MORE FASHIONABLE BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY YOU ARE OLDER THAN ME! Being rich and wanted to wear branded stuff and does not want to do housework is your freedom, i won't interrupt and comment on everything because YOU ARE JUST A SPOILT OLD WOMAN SPENDING YOUR PARENTS' MONEY AS IF THE MONEY DROPPED DOWN FROM THE SKY. But where is you manners??? You could not even respect people. Ya i might not be as rich and fashionable and knowledgeable and AS OLD AS YOU but i am still a human being studying in the same class as you. ARE YOU BLIND? This is just a basic manner and you could not even bother to learn it. I always thought older people should be wiser and apparently i am wrong. If you do not want to lend me your notes just tell me because i know you are from a country where most people are kia su. Just tell me straight to the face that i want that first class honour and i don't want you to be my competitor so i won't lend you my notes. Finish. This is so much better than giving thousand of shitty excuses. FINE. I DON'T BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE SMARTER THAN GOOGLE. I ENDURE YOU JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY CLASSMATE. I will still smile to you when i see you but never expect me to respect you anymore.

This is super annoying. My dad just popped out and asked if i am ok. I feel like telling him everything but i have to hold back. I don't want him to know what happened to me here. I hope that he knows i am fine everyday and i am living happily here. He has been worrying for me for 20 years and he should get some rest now. I should not bother him with all these bullshit. Since i am in ireland and i could not take care of you physically, at least i hope i can reduce your burden by never asking money from you and never let you know these things that i am facing. But don't worry my parents, i write it here because i need to remove those stuff from my brain and return my heartbeat to 72 times per minute. This is so much better than throwing plates right? HAHA. Don't worry, i will be clear of what reality is and gradually mould myself to be an independent and be able to survive in this evolving world.

PS : ignore my english. I am just writing whatever that comes out of my mind. I am not writing an essay. so yeah.

The only thing worth to be happy about for today is : i plan to cook and eat maggie for dinner! awesome! :)